Thankful

What I left out of Friday’s catch up post was that I was feeling stressed and a little overwhelmed that day/night. When I woke up on Saturday the kids were already arguing and fighting. I had to separate a few of them more than once, make kids hug, talk about how we should be speaking to each other nicely, and one had to go in a timeout to cool herself off. This was just the morning. It hadn’t even hit 10am yet.

Now here’s where I should probably tell you that I’m a horrible homebody. I don’t like being stuck in the house for too long. It makes feel almost claustrophobic. And when kids are fighting, it just makes that feeling even worse. So my next thought was “I need out of this house!” I kid you not, not ten minutes later, my dad texted me saying a coworker of his had tickets to the color festival that she couldn’t use and asked if I would like them.

Now get this – I actually had the audacity to think “Do I really want to take the kids out of the house today?” And then my next thought was “Are you kidding me?! You just said this is what you needed and you got it. Take it.” So I thanked my dad, thanked his coworker and thanked my Father.

You might not think that God would care about little details like this. But He does. He so does. Our happiness is incredibly important to him! Even through our trials, through our tests of faith, through any hardships, He doesn’t want us to be miserable. There are so many instances in the scriptures where it talks about the righteous praising and thanking God all day long. Don’t think for one second that those people never had any trials. It’s that they thanked God regardless of those trials.

So we got out of the house. I felt better. The kids chilled out. Life is good.

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Alma 7:23 – And now I would that ye should be humble, and be submissive and gentle; easy to be entreated; full of patience and long-suffering; being temperate in all things; being diligent in keeping the commandments of God at all times; asking for whatsoever things ye stand in need, both spiritual and temporal; always returning thanks unto God for whatsoever things ye do receive.

So thankful that I have a Heavenly Father that loves me enough to know exactly what I need when I need it. And so thankful for a father who obviously listens to the Father.

 

 

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Amazed by Grace

My husband works out of state for 2 weeks at a time, then home for a week, then out of town for 2 weeks, and on and on. We got married 3.5 months ago. One of those work rotations, he was actually gone for 5 weeks at a time. I’m not saying this to be negative. I have accepted it as a fact. I’m not upset by it except that I miss him constantly.

There have actually been a few positives that have come out of this schedule. I know, you wouldn’t think so. I went from being a mother of 3 to a mother of 10 overnight. You would think my husband being gone for weeks at a time would make this even more difficult. But I think that this actually helped the 7 kids that were new to me, bond with me. They had to get to know me and depend on me because their dad was at work. We all bonded (at various levels depending on their age, of course) very quickly! I’m incredibly thankful for this. I’m thankful that it had seemed so easy. That we could all get to know each other and for them to learn that they can depend on me.

With that said, I would be completely overjoyed to have my husband (his name is John or JP – let’s just get that introduction out of the way) not leave town for work. I’m not saying that it’s good he’s out of town or that any of us are happy about it. But there have been some positive things that have come from it, and for that I can be grateful.

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Tiny Theia

Whenever he’s out of town, I have at least one tiny person climb into bed with me. It’s like they know. They know there’s room in the bed. They know that I wouldn’t mind the cuddles. Usually it’s one (or both) of the 3 year olds.

The last 2 weeks that he was out of town, I had a really hard time dealing with kids fighting with each other. It isn’t always like this. They do get along really well. But every once in a while, they fight. They’re mean to each other. They make fun of each other. I mean, they are kids. But I have to admit. It breaks my heart every time. It doesn’t matter which kid it is. I have a really hard time hearing them be mean to each other. Really hard. This was the last 2 weeks.

Whenever John called, I told him things were fine. Kids were fighting a bit but all was well. I didn’t want to worry him or stress him out. So by the time he got home after the 2 weeks, my heart was done. I was stressed, on the verge of tears most of the time, and… cranky.

During those 2 weeks, the word Grace kept showing up. Then I remembered that I had downloaded the audio book version Amazed by Grace by Sheri Dew. I kept thinking I should listen to it but was already reading another book so I put the thought aside.

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When my husband got home I had the clear thought – fast. Okay, I fasted. I prayed. I was still cranky. The next day I got the same thought – fast. What? No way, I think my brain is unhinged. Being weird. Why would I have to fast 2 days in a row? I didn’t. I know. But I didn’t. I was still cranky. The next day while making breakfast for the kids, I had the same clear thought – fast. Okay, okay. I get it. I fasted. I prayed. Later that day, I broke down in tears and told my husband how upset I was about it all. Apparently I have a lot of work to do on my stubbornness. Good thing God knows that too! Ha!

John, being the strong smart man he is, told me that even if he’s not here, the power of prayer is real and I should never not tell him things just because he is not here to help. Because he can help. Touche.

I asked if he would give me a blessing before he left for work again. I honestly believe that this power is very underutilized. Every time I get a prompting to ask for a blessing. I ask. There are no requirements, no special cases we need to wait for to find out what our Heavenly Father has to say to us. If you think you need or want a blessing. Ask.

One of the many things that was said in that blessing was that I was basically told that all I have to do is ask for the strength and help I need and it will be sent automatically. Grace.

Yesterday my husband left back to work and I finished the other book I was reading. So today, I pulled up that book – Amazed by Grace, by Sheri Dew. I had it finished before 9am.

Do you know what it said?

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When you are overwhelmed, your faith can unlock Divine power. This will give you comfort, peace, and strength.

The fact that I kept feeling like I should listen to this book during those 2 difficult weeks… I probably should have listened.

If you haven’t read it. Read it. It’s good.