Daily Priorities

One of the reasons I’m taking a break from social media is to figure out how to fit the things that are of a high priority to me into my daily routines and then try to implement them into becoming healthy habits.

Like scripture reading. I did the Prophets challenge to read the Book of Mormon from cover to cover from October to the end of December. It was difficult even though I’ve read it that quickly before. But then as soon as I had completed the challenge, I wasn’t reading my scriptures as often again.

I just remembered that I bought a prayer journal for myself at Christmas time. It was only about $6 on amazon. I started using it this week and it has been incredibly helpful!

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There’s a spot to write a daily scripture verse on each days entry. So what I’ve been doing is reading my scriptures each morning for any length of time I have. Then I go back through what I read and pick out a verse that I feel stands out. I write that one down. Then it has spots to wrtite what you’re thankful for, what you want to work on, and what prayer requests you have. I use the prayer request portion to think about what I would like to pray about that morning; to focus my thoughts. I feel like this process is creating a more “active participation” in my mind. I’m not just saying the same prayers every day. I’m taking the time to think about what is really going on, what I am truly thankful for each day, and what I honestly need to work on or need help with.

Like I said, I just started using it this week but I already love it!

The kids are slowly recovering from the flu that went through the house. Just 2 kids left feeling sick. I’m hoping it will be gone by the weekend and that it won’t make any other rounds through anyone else!

I did have a funny conversation with Vaiden last night. I went in to check on the boys and Vaiden had just gotten into bed when he asked – “How do you do so much all the time?”

The question surprised me and so I responded with – “What do you mean?”

Vaiden – “Well, you take care of 9 kids every day and then when I was doing homework on your laptop, you have like 10 tabs open but they’re all for work.”

Me – “Oh, well I just try to get things done whenever I have the time.”

Vaiden – “huh…”

I was surprised he noticed. I have tabs open on my computer for ceu requirements for my midwifery certification, my email, some research for something I’m writing, and a tab for a few supplies to have on hand I want to order for the birth of our baby in the next few months. So not all of it work related… but most of it!

By the way, it’s completely blowing my mind that there’s only about 11ish weeks until I could meet my baby. Even sooner if he decides to be born early like Tahlia. Thankfully I don’t think I’d go too far past my due date but now that I’ve written it, it will probably happen. Because luck.

 

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How to Keep the Sabbath Day Holy

How do you keep the Sabbath day holy? This is different for everyone and each individual and family will have to choose what will be best for them. For me personally, I’ve struggled with this one. Especially with having 10 kids. I’ve limited the types of movies and tv shows that they can watch on Sundays, cut out activities that they can do any other day of the week but probably shouldn’t do on Sundays… like homework. But I’ve felt like this isn’t enough.

I really love what this article said about the Sabbath day.

“The word Sabbath comes from a Hebrew word that means rest, and the word holy means something that is sacred or dedicated to God. The Sabbath is a holy day, a day that’s supposed to be different from the other days of the week. On this sacred day, you should rest from your normal daily routine and dedicate your thoughts and time to God.”

So how do I do this with 9 kids ages 14-4?!

Well…. here’s some ideas. I read through them all and like a few of them. What I’ve basically decided is that it all is going to come down to being more organized. Which is actually pretty difficult for me. It’s just something I have to really try and focus on.

With this pregnancy, my “nesting” has been to really minimize what comes into the house and to declutter what is here. I’ve gotten rid of big items and lots of little items already and it feels like I’ve barely made a dent. I’ve decided that the only way to feel like I’m not living in clutter is to figure out a way to make this home of 11 (12 when this baby is born and 13 when Jordan gets back) is to organize it and make it a home of minimalism. Which again, is going to take some organizational skills… and maybe not sick kids to actually be able to get stuff done!

I feel like the next thing that needs to be done is to go through all of the clothes in the house which is daunting just by itself!

Anyways, back to the Sabbath day… some things that are going to take organization is going to be getting items that will be only Sunday items, like puzzles that we can work on together and maybe a few small puzzles for the younger kids. But then they get put away until the following Sunday. Printing pages to color and activities to do that are Sunday only. Basically, being on top of things to make Sunday feel more special that doesn’t involve just sitting on the couch vegging out on movies that “aren’t bad”.

I mentioned the minimalism thing because this is something I’ve been thinking about but it involves bringing in a few more items to the house. This feels… icky to me while there’s so much stuff already crammed into drawers and on shelves. The clutter drives me nuts. So I need to get this house under control before I feel like I can implement these other things successfully.

I really loved this article too.

The last thing it says is –

“Be consistent.

It won’t do you or your family much good if you do something one Sunday, then don’t do it the next. Children are quick to sense hypocrisy. If you want your Sabbath day activities to succeed, you must do them every week, or else they will become meaningless.”

THIS. This is what I don’t want. I want to create a home where everyone can work together. Where things don’t feel so crazy. Where the kids can expect certain things to happen… and they do. Where good things become routine.

This seems too hard but I know it isn’t. I know it can be done.

This is my goal before this baby is born. To organize this house and family in order to make our Sabbath days truly holy. Not just lazy, or boring, or alright. But holy and family centered. Without the clutter.

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When Music isn’t Enough

My go-to when I’m feeling overwhelmed or stressed is to listen to uplifting music. I have a Lauren Daigle station on Pandora that I’ve spent a year tailoring and it has some really great music! All of it is uplifting and helps to point my heart and mind to Christ when I’m feeling overwhelmed.

But lately, music is not enough. In fact, sometimes lately it’s downright distracting. My mind can’t focus on it. It just becomes noise. More noise than I already have in a house with 9 kids! (Yes, we have 10 but Jordan is on his mission).

The fix? Audio books. Or conference talks. I know that probably doesn’t make a lot of sense. It’s still noise. Still information that my mind has to process. But it gives me something to focus on. Something to learn. Something that’s not background noise. I feel like my mind and heart – while still pointed to Christ because of my audiobook choices – are able to progress instead of stay stagnant.

I think that’s what it comes down to. I’ve felt stuck. Spiritually stuck.

As soon as we got back from vacation, all of the kids got strep. Then a week or two later, we now have the flu going through the house. I have thievsed and even clorox’d the house several times. I’m now limiting sugar intake for the whole family now that Valentines Day is over. I don’t know what the deal is, but this winter has been rough! Thankfully I skipped the strep and haven’t gotten the flu…. yet.

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She NEVER naps anymore. You can always tell when she’s either growing or sick by if she naps.

So far 4 of the kids have gotten the flu and now the tiniest one is down for the count. I am thankful that they all seem to be taking turns rather than all being sick at the same time. But I’m also exhausted! Getting about 5-6 hours of sleep at night, broken up, because of sick kids is not very easy at nearly 28 weeks pregnant!

But like I said – it could be worse.

Because of all the sickness, we haven’t had family prayer as often as we should, haven’t read scriptures as a family as often as we should, haven’t done as much of the Come Follow Me as we should.

I feel like I’m failing at this motherhood thing lately. I feel spiritually stuck. And I feel guilty for not teaching my children the gospel as much as I should.

So music doesn’t work. I was feeling down about it all and decided to do some cleaning and decluttering and spent nearly a whole day doing that while I finished the Christ in Every Hour book by Anthony Sweat.

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It was amazing! I highly recommend it. It helped me to shift my perspective and to remember that this is something I have to work through. And that the kids will not be sick forever. That routines can be re-established and it’s okay to just do our best for now, even if our best just means keeping kids alive and getting 5 hours of sleep.

I’m now starting Angels: Agents of Light, Love, and Power by Donald W. Parry.

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I just started it so I can’t say anything yet but I feel like it’s one I should listen to, so it’s up next!

Things might not get easier, per se. But I’ll get better at handling them… and kids can’t be sick forever.

On the Morrow Come I Into the World.

It’s been a while since I’ve written anything here. One of my daughters dropped my laptop and you can no longer see the screen very well. So that was replaced. But then life got busy and writing got set aside.

I’m 26 weeks pregnant tomorrow. Time is flying by and I’m enjoying feeling this new life move around. We found out it’s a boy. Which still blows my mind. God blessed me with 5 boys and now another. I never thought I’d be a mother to boys.

I’ve been meaning to come back to writing here for a while. I’ve procrastinated about it for some reason. But there’s been a topic on my mind, and I wasn’t sure what would be the best avenue to discuss it/get it off my chest, so to speak.

I’ve been wondering, in a purely spiritual point of view – not political. I’ve been wondering – at what point does a spirit enter the body of a fetus/baby? Is it conception? The first heart beat? Birth?

I used to think it was conception. But now I’m not too sure.

3rd Nephi 1:13 says –

“Lift up your head and be of good cheer; for behold, the time is at hand, and on this night shall the sign be given, and on the morrow come I into the world, to show unto the world that I will fulfill all that which I have caused to be spoken by the mouth of my holy prophets”

Christ was doing whatever work he needed to accomplish before being born into his physical body while Mary was pregnant… with him.

Is this closeness I feel to my son because his spirit is in his little body already – like I used to think? Or is it because he is one of my guardian angels and he is sticking close by during this time because he’s just as excited to be here with us as I am to meet him as my infant son?

Again – this has nothing to do with politics. I didn’t want to post this on Facebook because I felt like it would devolve into something I didn’t mean it to be. I am simply curious. I’ve always just assumed that our spirits are “tied” to our bodies once a heart beat is there and we can move in our mothers womb. But after reading the scriptures and thinking about what that implies… I’m not sure.

That doesn’t mean that I don’t love my baby wiggling in my belly any less. I’m just wondering what he’s doing and experiencing. Or maybe he’s free to come and go as he likes and experience both?

Thoughts?

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Feasting on the Words of Christ

I gave a talk at Stake Conference last Sunday and I have had a few people ask me for a copy of my talk. So I figured I would just type it out here to make it easy.

I also did a video of it here, if that’s easier for you too.

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Snuck a picture before the session began 😉 

Here is the script-

2 Nephi 32:3

Angels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost; wherefore, they speak the words of Christ. Wherefore, I said unto you, feast upon the words of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will tell you all things what ye should do.

Good morning brothers and sisters. My name is Tarrin Pendergrass. I am a daughter of my parents who aren’t even in this stake but came anyways. I am a daughter of our Heavenly Parents. I just turned 33. I am a wife and a mother of 10. And I know theres gotta be a few of you out there who’s thinking… wait a minute… 33 and 10? My husband had 7 and I had 3. When we got married in January, I became a mother of 10. It has been a little crazy, a little overwhelming, and incredibly good! But… I’m getting a little ahead of myself.

The topic I was given to speak on was Feasting upon the Words of Christ, but not only that, 2 Nephi 32:3 – Angels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost; wherefore, they speak the words of Christ. Wherefore, I said unto you, feast upon the words of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will tell you all things what ye should do.

I’m here to tell you that these words are so so true! And now I can go back and tell you a little bit about myself. I grew up LDS. Recently, I’ve had a few people ask me, basically, what made you go inactive? Because I recently came back to church from being inactive for about 16 years.

It wasn’t any one big thing. Any one defining moment. It was tiny little decisions that led me away, baby step by baby step.

I stopped going to church around the age of 16. That means I stayed inactive for about 16 years. During that time, I went to college, I got married, I became a midwife, I had 3 babies of my own. Then, my ex husband and I decided to take a big risk and moved to Taiwan.

Now, I’m just one of those people who like to believe the best in everyone and every situation, but Taiwan was hard. Even though it was really interesting to be immersed in that culture, it was so isolating. So what do you do when you feel completely isolated? Personal Development. I started reading every positive book I could find on how to be better, feel better, and become better. And then it was like these light bulbs started going off in my mind. I saw my life as it really was for probably the first time in at least… 16 years. I saw my previous marriage – and I know marriage isn’t easy – but there was a lot there and my marriage was clearly starting to fall apart. It was during this time that I called my dad and just said – I don’t know what to do. What should I do?

He told me every marriage is hard but maybe my ex husband would consider going to church. Any church. For that connection to Christ changes lives. Serving others changes lives. Well, I knew that wouldn’t be happening, but what my dad said next was probably the biggest light bulb that I ever had go off.

He said – Faith isn’t something you have, it’s something you choose and learn.

My first thought was “oh – I’ve been teaching myself not to have faith all of these years!

That struck me so hard. It was exactly what God knew I needed to hear to open that door.

So, I secretly downloaded the Book of Mormon onto my phone. Secretly because I did talk to my ex husband about that I might want to go back to church (I had actually wanted to about 5 years before but he had basically just said no then) what he said this time was that it would be “divorce worthy”. So I secretly started reading the Book of Mormon.

I knew that I had to at least find out how I felt about it. I had to know if what was in these pages was true. So I read it cover to cover in about 2 months.

I was about 3/4 done reading it and I already knew that it was true – when we decided to move back to the United States. We knew our marriage definitely wouldn’t last if we didn’t do something. We decided to move to Utah instead of going back to Oregon where we had lived before. I finished reading the Book of Mormon and things were just not getting any better. I kept getting this feeling that I should ask my dad for a blessing and at first I was like “nooooo” because then he would know and there would be no going back!

But every time I even spoke to my dad or texted him, there’d be this voice “ask ask ask”. You know that really uncomfortable feeling you get when you know you should get up and bare your testimony and you’re just looking around to see if anyone is going to get up and walk up there first and the Spirit is like – get up before I make you crawl out of your skin? That’s the feeling I had every time I spoke to my dad… for like a week. So I finally texted him and asked for a blessing which he came right over to give me.

About a week or so later, I told my ex husband that I wanted a divorce.

Now, there’s a lot in our marriage I’m leaving out because it doesn’t matter. And 5 years ago when I had told him I wanted to go back to church and he had said no – I wasn’t ready to choose church and God over my marriage. But after reading the Book of Mormon, really reading it because I had to know if it was true or not, and receiving a clear resounding yes – this book is true and it is from God. I couldn’t make any other choice.

So that Sunday after I told him I wanted a divorce, I got my 3 girls dressed up and we went to church. Their first time ever and my first time in 16 years. This first church visit was almost 11 months ago. Since that first time I read the Book of Mormon one year ago, I’ve read it cover to cover 2 more times. Each time I learn more and more. I find what seems like brand new scriptures all the time. I find verses that speak to me and help me with my day to day life – daily!

This last year, I’ve read the Book of Mormon 3 times, I’ve gone through a divorce, been a single mom, met my current husband – which I’ve never prayed so much about a relationship in all my life. We met and 6 weeks later were married. But I know without a doubt that he is exactly the person I was supposed to marry and that his kids were meant to be mine as well. I never envisioned myself as a mother of 10 but then again I never envisioned most of the things that my Heavenly Father has brought into my life in the last year.

And it is only by God’s love, grace, and infinite understanding and orchestrating that I am standing in front of you today.

My testimony of this gospel and of the Book of Mormon are way stronger than they ever would have been if I didn’t first understand what it felt like to be without it all. And I’m not saying that’s the way to go – but for me personally – who happens to be a moderately stubborn person… I think God knew that I would need to see and feel the difference.

This gospel is light. Those light bulbs that went off in my mind were well timed and well placed by a Heavenly Father who loves me intensely and unconditionally.

Whether you’ve been in the church your whole lives, or taken a break and come back, or if you are new in the gospel – we all have to be converts. Because at some point in our lives, we all have to read the Book of Mormon with one intent. To really know and feel and testify of the truth of it. And when we’ve done that and gotten our own personal conviction and revelation that this book is true then we can really begin to live this gospel. It all starts here. I implore you to read this book and pray your hearts out to feel the truth it contains. To feel your Heavenly Father testify to you personally the truth because this is the only way that your faith will hold firm. And, my friends, we need strong testimonies in this gospel. We need people who will stand up and testify of the truth in these pages. It took me a long hard road to learn this and I will never let this truth go because I have gotten confirmation from my God without any doubts whatsoever.

In Alma 53:10 it says – And now behold, I have somewhat to say concerning the people of Ammon, who, in the beginning, were Lamanites; but by Ammon and his brethren, or rather by the power and word of God, they had been converted unto the Lord; and they had been brought down into the land of Zarahemla, and had ever since been protected by the Nephites.

The word of God has incredible power and we are blessed to have an entire book full of words of God. Now I want to tell you a few reasons why I love this book so much. Some people believe it’s simply a history. A history of peoples long gone. But it’s not.

This book was written for us! It’s full of advice, prophecy, hope, love, secrets for those willing to look for them, and power.

These prophets saw our latter days and knew by the grace of God what we would need to read. Can you imagine these prophets being shown our day and age? Living in their time and seeing ours? I want to read you this scripture – just for fun – it’s in 2nd Nephi Chapter 12 – the synopsis reads , Isaiah sees the latter-day temple, gathering of Israel, and millennial judgment and peace—The proud and wicked will be brought low at the Second Coming—Compare Isaiah 2. About 559–545 B.C. Then it goes on to say in verse 7 – Their land also is full of silver and gold, neither is there any end of their treasures; their land is also full of horses, neither is there any end of their chariots.

The prophet Isaiah is describing the latter days. He saw them. He was shown us! Sooo… do we have chariots? I mean, I’m sure there’s a few out there – but do we have “neither is there any end of their chariots?” “a land full”… of chariots? No! Cars on the other hand… how else would an ancient prophet of God be able to describe the things he saw? He’d use the vocabulary he has. Remember when I said there are secrets in scriptures for those willing to look for them?

Line upon line does not mean sit back and wait to be taught. It means read it over and over and over again.

Each time you do, pray. Pray for your minds to be opened. Your eyes, your ears, and your heart to be opened. Prayer is a dialogue. It’s not meant to be a monologue. Talk and then pause, listen and respond to what you feel or hear, and I guarantee you will learn deeper and deeper truths each and every time you read this book.

Besides finding hidden messages of cars in the Book of Mormon, how else can we apply this book written in ancient times to our modern lives?

It’s actually really easy to find ways to do this when we really know that it was written for us. Let’s go back to 2nd Nephi 32:3 – Angels speak by the power of the Holy Ghost; wherefore, they speak the words of Christ. Wherefore, I said unto you, feast upon the words of Christ; for behold, the words of Christ will tell you all things what ye should do.

Stephen R. Covey spoke in 1974 saying – prayerful scripture study is also the key to personal revelation. Nephi taught that the Holy Ghost speaks “the words of Christ” and that if we would “feast” on the words of Christ we will be told all things that we should do. In other words, the Holy Ghost will give us guidance. Whether we accept that guidance depends on our faith and obedience to the light already given. (line upon line – remember?) and this part is really cool. He says, The verb “feast” is most instructive, it implies savoring, believing, loving, pondering, meditating, relishing, all of which bespeak a spirit of faith and obedience.

When we regularly feast on the words of Christ (prayerfully study the scriptures) they become planted in the fleshy tables of the heart.

2nd Corinthians 3:3 says – Forasmuch as ye are manifestly declared to be the epistle of Christ ministered by us, written not with ink, but with the Spirit of the living God; not in tables of stone, but in fleshy tables of the heart.

And then the Holy Ghost will bring them to our remembrance of consciousness, as each occasion demands – perhaps somewhat like a computer would draw on its data bank to solve a problem.

We are not asked to memorize the scriptures. We all can’t be scriptorians. I’m definitely not! We are asked to feast. To love, to relish the words. And then the Spirit will bring to our minds what we need when we need them.

One of my favorite bits of advice for reading the scriptures and applying them to our lives is to insert your name. Visualize you being there, being a part of the stories. Visualization is uniquely human and powerful. Putting yourself into the shoes of Nephi, Alma, Jared, King Benjamin, and any other person in this book can give you new perspective, renewed faith, and confidence for your life. Try it!

In 2011, Elder Neill L. Anderson said: In todays world, the arrogant arguments of Korihor – the anti-Christ, find listening ears:

“Why do ye look for a Christ? For no man can know of anything which is to come.”

“Behold, these things which ye call prophecies… are foolish traditions of your fathers.”

“Ye cannot know of things which ye do not see…”

“Every man prospers according to his own genius, and conquers according to his own strength.”

These are things we hear today. These are things I let myself believe when I left the church. The adversary doesn’t need new tricks when the old ones still work so well.

He goes on to say – We need our own secure and settled faith in the Lord Jesus Christ, and we need help in strengthening our families so that this faith flows into the hearts of our children and grandchildren. Faith in Jesus Christ, when solidly anchored in our souls, brings true conversion, and in its wake – repentance, honest discipleship, miracles, spiritual gifts, and enduring righteousness. This is an important part of the divine mission of the Book of Mormon.

One of my favorite gardening tips I’ve gotten – also from my dad – was “when you think you’ve watered it enough, water it some more.” I think this little tip can be applied in so many areas of our lives.

When you think you’ve prayed enough, pray some more. When you think you’ve learned all of the answers, ask more questions. When you think you’ve read the Book of Mormon long enough or enough times, read more, read it again.

Just like plants in the garden need more water, our spirits need everything we can give them. And if we can do this, I know for a fact that we can grow, progress, and get the personal revelation that our prophet is urging us to seek. And the Book of Mormon is how we begin.

I say these things in the name of my Savior, Jesus Christ, Amen.

 

Summer Fun

Yesterday was a buuuusy day from the time I got up until the time I fell asleep (almost on the couch!) So tired.

It started with the fact that I completely forgot that most of the kids had a dentist check up at 8am, which John reminded me of at about 1:30am. So I got up at 6:30, got ready, made the kids breakfast, made them all wake up, eat, get dressed, and got them out the door… 15 minutes after their appointment was supposed to begin. Thankfully, it’s really close by!

We did the dentist appointment for 5 of the kids from 8:25ish-10am. Then I went across the street to the store, grabbed some food for a picnic, and rushed back home.

Next, dropped off most of the kids at home and told them to get their swimsuits on as fast as they could. Caitlin and Ethan stayed there and helped with Vaiden, Taevia, Phalin, Tahlia and Paxton. While they did that, I took Jordan to work real quick.

Got back, packed the last few things for the lake and got them all back into the car. Drove over to the Grandparent Pendergrass’s house and we headed out to the lake!

The lake wasn’t busy at all which was really nice! All of the kids had a ton of fun swimming, building sand castles, and rowing in their cousins canoe. That was my favorite part too. At one point I had Theia, Tazden, Paxton, Tahlia, and Phalin in the canoe at one time. I rowed them out to the buoy so they could touch it and rowed them back to shore… at least 10-15 times. Caitlin read a book most of the time, but she came with us which is the most important part!

I’m so glad their grandparents, aunt and uncle and cousins could all go. It’s so nice to get to know their (our) family better and to be able to spend time with them doing something that all of the kids enjoy.

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After the lake, we went home to change then I brought most of the kids over to their grandparent’s house to play with their cousins for a little longer. We finally got home for the night about 10pm. All of the kids went to bed and then so did !!

Long day but a good day. I’m looking forward to many more! The only thing that would have made it better is if John were here with us.

Tears of Joy

Going back and forth between houses is never easy for kids. I’m so glad Taevia, Tahlia, and Theia enjoy the time that they spend at their dads house. I know they miss him and like being over there. This time, when Taevia got back – before bed – she said that she wished she was back at her dads house. I asked her why and she said “because dads house is fun.” She was very upset and crying. I sat there for a second just thinking. She doesn’t always do well with bedtime and her being tired stresses her out even more. We had already been talking about why she was originally upset. 15 minutes before she said it was because the boys are mean to her. (They had been in the past a little bit but we’ve talked to her and them about it and all of them are getting way better with each other. They hadn’t been mean at all that day. I think she’s just holding onto the previous stuff)

I was starting to get frustrated because it was feeling like she was just cycling through things to be upset about to get her to stay out of bed.

So I sat and just thought about it all for a minute.

This is what I told her –

“Sometimes… people are mean in this life. Sometimes, it is our job to be the good example and show them love. You are going to meet people in life who will not be nice to you. You need to be strong. You are strong. It is not my job as your mother to make life fun. We will have lots of fun times together. But my job, as your mom, is to make sure you grow into a woman who is kind, who loves God, and loves her family. Not only are you my daughter, you are a daughter of God. That makes you a goddess. That makes you royalty. You have to stand tall and stand firm and show others the way to kindness. I promise we will have fun together but my job as your mom is to make sure you grow into this strong woman who loves God and loves her family.”

The next thing she said was “I’ve never cried tears of joy before!”

Oh my daughter. You teach me so much. Our kids need to hear these things. They need to hear that sometimes life is hard but we can stand tall and stand firm and our faith will pull us through. I’m so thankful that I paused instead of allowing myself to just get frustrated and make her go to bed.

After that, she went right to bed and slept through the night.

Parenthood isn’t easy but it is oh so worth it. I’m so glad she chose me to be her mother. I can’t wait to find out what else she has to teach me.

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my beautiful Taevia

Happy Fathers Day

I’m lucky to have some really great fathers in my life. First, my dad. Who taught me to be strong and fearless by his example. Who never gave up on me. Who always hoped and prayed and believed that I would come around to the gospel again someday. Who is an example of leadership, entrepreneurship, and being bold in the face of adversity. Who taught me and continues to teach me that making mistakes is human but coming to Christ heals all. My dad who has loved me since day one. Honestly, I firmly believe we loved each other before we came to this earth. I’ve always loved and admired this man with all my heart and know of a surety that we were meant to walk this life together. I couldn’t do it without him and wouldn’t want to.

Thank you dad, for all that you are.

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my dad

My step dad. Who taught me that forgiveness is Christlike. That we all make mistakes but that family is forever. This man taught me that people change, even me. That even if we don’t understand our parents that someday, we just might. This man who loves my mother, who took on 3 kids in his early 20’s with no parent manual on how to be a step-parent but tried his best regardless. His example has taught me perseverance. sacrifice, and humility.

Thank you and Happy Fathers Day.

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My step dad with my mom

I have to give a little shoutout to my father in law as well. I actually met him a few weeks before I met my husband in person. He came over to my house to meet me and loan me a book John and I had talked about over the phone. When I met him, I automatically liked him. He is kind, smart and easy to talk to. Since getting to know him better, he constantly impresses me. He loves God, Christ and his family intensely. He pushes me to be a better person. I’m thankful for his example, strength, and love that he adds into our family and into my life already and our journey together has only begun.

Happy Fathers Day!

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my father in law

I also want to say Happy Fathers Day to my husband. The man who already had 7 kids yet opened his heart to 3 more. Who tries so hard to connect with them and love them when he’s home from work. He is an amazing father. A father who loves and listens to his kids. Who stays hours after he should have left for work to make sure they’re all okay. This man who is a powerful priesthood holder. Who has given me blessings whenever I ask for them, who prays for and with our family every day that he’s home, who teaches and talks about the gospel with excitement and love. This man loves God and our Savior Jesus Christ with all of his soul. He is the strength and center of our home and family, even though he has to work away from home for weeks at a time. Who makes me laugh. Who I can talk to endlessly about anything at all. Who already knows me so well and can crack my stubbornness with his persistent love. I couldn’t have asked and prayed for a better father for all of our kids. I’m lucky to walk this journey with him by my side, leading our children through this life.

Happy Fathers Day my love, my soul mate, my husband.

 

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Calm in the Chaos

This week was the Young Living Convention in Salt Lake City. My favorite part about it was being able to see all of my people, my friends, and my friends who I had never met in person before! It was amazing.

It went from Wednesday to Saturday. There were classes on business and networking, emotions, essential oils, science, you name it and we got to visit the farm.

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Sniffing freshly cut Juniper

This year, they put all of the classes online as well. This meant that… I didn’t worry about missing the classes. I’m sure that’s not why they did it, but it was really nice!

Last week I was able to go to the temple for the very first time. I had never even been as a teenager before I went inactive. I loved it. So, because I wasn’t worried about missing classes and I had babysitting already – I walked the few blocks over to the SLC Temple instead. I was able to go 3 of the days this week. It was so calming amid all of the hustle and bustle. I’ve learned so much in such a short amount of time and I want to go every day! I don’t think I’ll actually be able to go every day or even 3 times a week most of the time but I’m so glad that I was able to this week.

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Such a beautiful building!

Mostly I’m exhausted from lack of sleep and being on the go all week. I’m looking forward to settling back into the routine with the kids (I’ve missed them!) and planning fun things we can do together as a family this summer.